Denial Milking and Differential

I am completely in love with my Goddess her Highness G, she loves her power over me more and more, every night I stay at her place, when she goes to get ready for bed I have to completely rush around and get everything done, her room tidy, make her bed, carefully fold and put her clothes away that she throws around (now she has come to expect her slave to tidy up after her) after getting her glass of water, I strip and when I hear her leave the bathroom I have to scramble (she says she likes to hear me scramble) to bow down on my knees in a deep bow. She loves her power over me and has almost no inhibitions, except perhaps in causing me too much pain.

last weekend she rode my face with such intensity, I was rubbed raw, I spent most of it desperate for breath (which seemed to turn her on more) I was blown away into deep subspace, but alas she still could not cum like this, perhaps part of the problem is my extreme desire for her to do this as I have said I wanted this from day one, its weird when I resist or don't want something then she can have the freedom to really get into it, otherwise she can't seem to get into it enough.

So I decided to count my blessings that she could only orgasm with me inside her, and she often let me cum or would bring me off with her hand, both of which is so intense, but being brought to by hand is almost more intense than penetration, as i feel totally in her power, she goes at her own rate and I am lost in it. When I cum I go kinda crazy almost animal like, really I become like a wolf, feel extreme intense aggression, not towards anybody or her just like a animalistic desire to tear apart (I am the year of the Dog and have so much in common with Dogs! it kinda makes sense from a wolf/dog type person).

Anyway I digress...so her mum is visiting and we can't see each other as her place is small I am ordered not to touch myself for the week, which is hard, and she has been denying me more and more (although before this she let me cum 3x in one night) but I am very highly sexed and used to release pretty much daily, with occasion 3-4 releases in a night.
So I had a (nother) synchronicity thing happen then: as last night I lay in bed thinking how much I love her power over me, and that I want her to have many orgasms to mine, and then was thinking about the ratio, was 5 to 1 to big for me, it sounds lame (but would probably equate to 2 weeks) then I was thinking really it should be like 100-1 which would be release twice a year or something, totally out of my ballpark, but sounded right for a slave/goddess type relationship.
Then she calls me tonight and says she wants me to be permantly denied until we are married! omg I was in the office and could not answer her, so she carried on and said just like the story I told her recently (I read a story from Elsie Suttons interviews online magazine about a lady who found out her sub was a virgin and she decided to keep him her permenant vigin. Originally she was going to deflower him on their wedding night but the power and thrill was too much so she has decided she will never allow him to enter a her as long as they are together, which means he could well die a virgin!!) so she has given me the command to research milking and present it to her when we next meet. And said she is seriously considering this!! omg that is too much I really don't think I could handle that, we have not talked or gone into chasity devices but I am certain she will get on that train too!! aggg what have I let myself in for.

I love the differential between us which is increasing everytime we meet and its such a thrill to feel and be her's to be owned as her slave. But if she can only cum with me in her and she is planning on permanent denial till we are married ( we have only been going out almost 9 months) it all sounds too extreme, I also don't think she wants a guy who is going to marry her because he has become a Putty Puppy! I am sure she wants me to marry her out of love and adoration, not intense sexual frustration.
A couple more points:
I love to be her slave, I love the 'idea' of extreme denial and her unbound pleasure and delight, but I think a balance is also needed, I am still a boyfriend and we have both agreed we want that (although she said I might become just her slave at some point!!) both ways, in terms of denial and teasing I love that I love to feel in her power but at the same time I don't want to be so highly sexed all the time that I cannot think and use and be my normal rational and creative self.
Although if milking does release the pressure then it could be doable, pleasing her is such a incredible thrill and if I were being milked then it always be about her and I would never be considered! (until we were married) -But I am scared of my life being limited to just sexualness, there is so much more than sex and if I become this total sexed lapdog I feel I will lose other qualities of my personality I have too.

Anyone have any thoughts on this?