Some experiences to share

I think my girlfriend, who is really losing that title by the day is so much more into this lifestyle on some levels than I am, I feel my energy is starting this off but I am pretty sure she will carry it further than I could anticipate. We were driving in the car talking about my slavery to her, which is a very normal conversation for us these days and she said that it might get to the point where I am just a it (aka Ingrid Bellemare blog - male-slave blog ) a slave with no rights, she was serious, whenever I offer to be more boyfriend like, or more vanilla and normal she really desists, saying she wants me attending to her as a slave, it can scare me how much she has taken to this, of course we all know the phase 'be careful what you wish for' and I was perfectly aware of this before enticing her into the world of female domination, but it seems to be really coming true, in more and more ways.

It is now normal for me to clean up, do breakfast, wash, make her tea, keep her clothes just as she likes them, start her car. Everytime she finds a way for me to do work for her she does, as is her right as my Goddess. One thing we have difference on is public forms, I really want a completely vanilla public apperance, she is less concerned about that, although she does understand my need for a certain normal public expression, but it is where we often have disagreements, I don't think she realises the stigma assosiated with a woman being so aloof, unhelpful and bossy as percieved in the public eye. One thing she often does if there are lots of bags to carry I carry them all and she expects me to open doors and completely put her first when I am often struggling to carry everything, I of course love this but I really get embarassed about this in public.
One bag had a crop sticking out with a plastic bag over it, the bag had half come off so anyone close enough could see it was a crop, we were walking through very crowded places, when we got back she laughed and was amused I was frustrated and a little upset.

We have been living together temporaily for the past couple weeks, and I found it more challenging than her, as I deeply felt I had lost my freedom. We had a arguement (are arguments are all femdom free currently) and didn't talk for a day, after we talked we agreed on most aspects and it really being about power, and my having trouble with losing it. Also it had come up that I didn't feel submissive or that she was particularily dominant with me, but we made up and slowly resumed femdom. I think on a deeper level we needed to go further and deeper and this is what happened next...